My anger boiled into rage and I squirmed, trying to wriggle free from his grasp. I wanted to push him away, spit in his face, curse at him, and run. But through my tantrum, God’s warm countenance never changed. His grip held me firm.
I still don’t fully understand this experience after my dad died in a car accident when I was 9. In the aftermath, I lay alone on the family room couch and, in a vision, Jesus sat beside me and gently put his hand on my back, then scooped me into his arms.
What stuck with me wasn’t my venom toward Jesus, but his response. Unchanging. Loving. Constant and present. He didn’t chide me for my emotional outburst. He let me feel it and express it.
The experience brought a rich biblical truth to life for me: Nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:39). No one can snatch his children from his hand (John 10:28). He will never leave or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).
Perhaps there is something you’re afraid to bring to God. A deep wound, a nagging question, or doubt. The passages referenced above overwhelmingly state that nothing will cause the Lord to push you away. Even we are not strong enough to break his grip.
Lord, thank you for the promise that those whom you draw to yourself will never be separated from you. Show me what I might be holding back from you because of fear, and help me to draw near to You boldly and securely, bringing you everything. In Christ’s name, amen.
Go Deeper — What negative emotions do you feel toward God, and/or what questions about him do you find yourself asking? Commit to bring them to God in prayer whenever they next emerge in your mind or heart. Be honest with him, and ask him to meet you in that vulnerable place.
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