Why are you being killed, Jesus? I don’t want you to die. You were supposed to save us from the Romans. You said you would rise from the dead but only God could do that. Timidly, I touch both Marys’ shoulders, their eyes reflecting my misery.
Jesus croaks between the gasps of a son and a mother.
*I have to take care of my own mother and his? Uh…well, I love him. I would do anything for him. I just need to go back to fishing, that’s all. James and I can make enough sales to pay for everyone’s expenses. *
I look away from Jesus’ face to his mother. She smiles uncertainly, and I hug her to my sweaty tunic before she can see my doubts.
Has God given you a task that seems too difficult? An assignment to actively love someone who is not a blood relation? Have you been confused about God’s plan for your life?
John was probably confused, sad, and overwhelmed. A few days later everything changed. It all made sense and his tears turned to joy. Will you trust God when you don’t understand? Will you lean on him for all you need and for what you require to help others too?
Lord God, I am overwhelmed with all you seem to want me to do. Please help me to love and serve my family and others you have assigned to me with the strength that comes from you. Help me to trust you more when I can’t figure out what’s happening. Thanks for making it all come out right in the end.
Throughout this day: Meditate on 1 Corinthians 13. Jesus loves you this way and he gives you the power through his Spirit to love others like that too.
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